"give back"

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

OH GOD. HOW CAN I FORGET.
i got my testi today. guess what it writes.
its shit funny, got me fucking alert in the morning coz i was laughing like an idiot,

everythings about hockey, saying i'm MOTIVATIONAL. HAHAH.
bullshit and hear this. I GOT A SENSE OF HUMOUR, and A BIG HEART.
HAHAH, funny shit, have they no eyes or its just some template that they copy and paste?

maybe i am that good, am i not? HEH.
some of them even worse.
kelly one writes - take part in annual sports day 07/08 and interhouse games.
becoming more sporty and active HAHAH, WTF. everyone takes part.
i guess they run out to stuff to write once in a while.

melody,
{12:35 PM}

i duno wad to say to u, i was really happy today coz u made my day.
then near the end of a perfect day u decide to ruin it again and make me miserable.
okay,maybe its partly me thats always taking stuff this manner, but i'm sure u know better.
tmr, we've supposed to go out, ur idea for once. then u decide to pang se me and give me some...
SHIT excuse that is so totally made up by dear u (like i dun know u better)
then later after getting me so angry and fed up u tell me its okay, we go out.
make up ur mind la. dun do this to me, if u jus wanna see me cry tell me, i can cry on the spot for u.
i've learnt the art of doing that a while ago and its not too difficult really.

i'm going to start mugging,and properly doing work, i'm so proud of myself.
urs truly wrote about half of her lit essay already and is already half through the work.
i understand that when i really want to do things, its really too quick! (the speed i do stuff i mean)
errors also alot more la, piang eh.

i prefer that we go to school and do productive things, too bad, i'm jus a ponner so uh.
history mock today i totally killed my part a, and thank god for me i decided not to study chap10 ystd.
and TOOT,(isweared) it decided to so coincidentally come out for sbq so i wrote shit contexual knowledge,
but i was lucky that the part i remembered came out as ONE essay question.
that can most likely save me like 1/4 IF i get it right.

this sucks.i know,sigh.
i love the chocolates u bought for me btw, they've really good.
hope they've not too expensive, i know u've saving money =)
results are freaking out tmr, and i'm so scared i'm shivering(like real).
my combined sci mcq, 23/40,screwed and i figured that i most probably didnt do well for chem.
guess why? coz i'm stupid down for compulsory consultation, wads there to consult if i got nth to consult.
=( i cried.

and i think i'm gonna cry loads more tmr when i get my shitty results. i study realy hard okay.
i'm not a closet mugger, i'm an open-closet-door mugger, just that
i probably dun look stressed out so ppl think i'm a slacker and thats f*cking unfair.
i will go pin up my hair, tie it up, wear my specs,alter back my skirt and get a tight fitting blouse.
then will ppl know that i'm actually working hard. sterotype.
ya urm, ... peace.

u're always making me empty promises,can u stop it?
i cant help but think that maybe , just maybe, its over u know?
sigh, i duno wad to think really.

melody,
{12:28 PM}

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

ITS A PILE OF ANTS ON THE SCREEN! HAPPY READING! HAHAH,
oh god, am i normal? iwondersometimestoo.

melody,
{12:30 PM}

Monday, September 24, 2007

i think i've caught the latest study-headache-sleep bug.
everytime i try and study i either fall dead asleep and wake up like a million years later
or i simply just have a freaking headache and decide to go and sleep or rot.
i'm rotten shit! =(
this sucks like hell, i fail exam how,no future how,no money how, die how.
duno how la aiya sian ka be si.

i hate school. its flooded with irritating juniors who cant seem to quit being irritatin for a day.
i know i've been a junior myself, was i like that?! oh no. but aiya .
this new batch of ___ are like respect-less and attitude-less and poser-ful.
not shit pissed at anything but jus feel like complaining and whining la.
wapiang,load and load us with infinity exam papers to do, i see maths also scared alr.
i love maths btw, ya right.

my dear friend kelly started a blog and i posted a comment,
i'm feeling extremely accomplished as i have finally posted a comment in years!
feel honoured although i know u might just never see this blog, hah.
its called an eventful-less day where i got nth to say except pure crap. pang xie!
walau,got history mock tmr, we do so much dont teachers ever get tired of marking?
must be the promotion and salary rise thats keeping them going and working SO very hard.
thank god that mass dance is freaking cancelled tmr or we'll be fools jus swinging about,
maybe only me coz WAD ARE THE DANCE MOVES?... i got short term ah,sorry ah.urm wad? uh
i am hardworking and i shall go study history.
...
stalin is my friend, born..?... took over russia until his death is 1953.
gained power by worshipping lenin and developing a cult of lenin so that the people will think he's lenin's man
and support him because they supported lenin, oh how sly!
used political maneovers kamenev and zinoviev his rivals, to gain control then kill them.
introduced communism into russia and made russia a totalitarian state, using the secret police CHEKA
and russia is red so i will type in red, eh wrong communism is red.
uh ya la, wad else,OH people must clap when "stalin" is said, like in a speech if ppl say stalin stalin.
the audience(so poor thing) must clap and clap , ya ri-g-h-tt..
used propaganda and portrayed himself as "heroic stalin".

thank you, thats like only an itsy witsy bit from the bloody text book.
to think that i promised myself that i will read the whole of wendy clark no matter wad.
go me, if i score a distinction for history i will take a bloody picture and post it up.

LAND ,PEACE ,BREAD! -lenin, bolshevik party october revolution1917

melody,
{9:28 PM}

Sunday, September 23, 2007

liuxing taiwan magazine is really good! to a certain extent and my opinion is bias.
due to edison chen's frequent show-face on the cover, i've fallen for the mag.
good strategy! =\ look at the cutie face!
the ones on the cover are just too great, ima see if i have time and scan it.
(dont worry, i still like u better =) )

greatest pity that jose is no more the manager of dear chelsea,
i am certainly not a big fan of chelsea but i think jose is a hero.
why must he make such an exit now,
soccer will be so different without his drama and criticism.(not that i would do with it but ya)
thank you jose mourinho for bringing us such joy in football,

yesterday was totally terrible, how come my torres never start??
that aside, the score was jus infuriating, like hello.open goal how many times? (once)
torres would have blasted the ball into the net like a million times if he played the first half.
too bad,he didnt. so liverpool will have to just make do with the 1point they earn.
i must comment though that the opponent's defence was good.

i will stop soccer-ing and better start mugging soon,
exams are really round the corner and wad am i doing?!
well, hope the new blogskin's nice, i kinda did it real quick. 1hr and thats it.
so taa-daa.
ya whutever.
well i better start working hard and quit being such a slug.
I CANT BELIEVE I ALMOST ATE RAW EGGS.

thanks for yesterday, i really feel much much better now.

melody,
{5:26 AM}

Friday, September 21, 2007

i cant swear because i just cant, this sucks, wad in the world is the world coming to.
wtf is everyone's problem. ok not everyone but almost, majority,
can ppl stop sth called labelling and seriously look at themselves.
like hello unless u're perfect shut the fuck up and dun pinpoint on others la.
and most importantly,wtf is with jealousy.
if u've so jealous go fuck urself. and think of why u arent as good as i am.

its not called threatening or wadever but havent a you got anything better to do then pick on me.
i know u cant stand it coz i got into a top school via dsa,
then u want to pick a fight and think u've very smart jus fuck off la.
if u've that smart and bold, come talk to me in person why use such dirty methods.
i'll sue u and one day u can jus sit down and lick my toes.
but then again, my toes are too good for ur mouth.

fuck off and die la.
bitch, dun abuse fucking authority.
its a democratic world, authoritarian rule is disallowed.
jus mind ur own business and leave me alone.
dun need to influece and try and sway the majority.
fuck urself la.

i'm sorry if this post is vulgar and contains m18 contents.
please jus sensor this thing out if u want, but i'm
fucking pissed with a fucking someone that got my fucking blood boilling.
toot.
to hell with you.

melody,
{4:16 PM}

Thursday, September 20, 2007

OMG,DID U FUCKIN SEE HIS HAIR.
WHAT IS WITH RICARDO QUARESMA'S HAIR!!!!*)#@
he's still hot and ultra hot i have to agree, but wads with it,
its like freaking braided and tied up at the bottom itotallydunnowtftosay.tyvm.

i love ur hair dun worry.
it jus doesnt go with ur face, i love ur spiked up one much much more.
applies to u too fernando, I LOVE UR SPIKES! D:

its been terribly long since god know when i see my beloved ricardo on tv.
its not freakin everyday that the loser station airs it. but still,,,
once in a while when i see rq on i MUST watch it.
hotness coolness and ultra superb skills.love you to nuts.
liverpool vs porto 1 : 1
kuyt(17) gonzalez(8th min penalty)
moving on from soccer, is us.
i duno wad to say to u, u're like... - -"
making me just miserable and sad beyond words can tell.
this fri we're supposed to go out, ...
i rather not talk about it, its jus frustrating la wtf.

ya and then there's ur theory of not swearing extensively.
i do, its not like its the first day u've known me.
i will try and stop but its jus like,,,naturally comes out.
like toot toot toot toot.
"shut up medy"
just urm stfu and die u know like urm lie in the urm corner,urm there.

hahh,beats me to think of such shit.
seb. lee s.h!=)
thanks for everything really, wad in the world would i be without u lovely boy.
u jus dont give up and keep going like push with all u've got and one day
POOF, there ur marvellous results.
thanks for being there when i need u the most,
and sorry, but urm ya. =\

its a long day of ridiculous talks and just nonsense from a ponner.
wad ta do, this is life (not)
life = free make up and social etiquette courses.
like come on, even if u've unglam and a disgusting nose picker
u'll still eventually turn old and die and be cremated or buried all the same.
doesnt count to change wad u are jus to suit the world.
like live with wad u have and jus urm, make do with it, urm ya urm.
this is damn shit,i simply dun understand why ppl invent such courses and make u sit there
and rot for like a whole fucking day (OH there i go again).
and then there's the long winded talks.

GOOD AFTERNOON MY DEAR LADIES AND GENTLEMEN,
i am here today to talk to u about why we should spend our time more fruitfully instead
wasting it on talks after talks of know nothings and sleep-and-drool sessions.
i'm sure u've learnt alot from me today, thank you for ur kind attention.

talks are useful but only if u wanna attend them, not when u've forced to.
like if u love fernando torres, of course who the hell would mind hearing him talk for a whole day!
see the difference, now compare.
willing vs unwilling party.

there u have it, =)
rafa's cute,
benitez ah pek, rest ur players when u have to.
why didnt u play daniel agger my baby face!!! =(
promise to play him next time and make sure ft scores a goal okay,okay okay??
promise? yay,

we shall chomp and die on excessive mooncakes.

melody,
{4:56 PM}

Saturday, September 15, 2007

wtf is my problem, i kep buying stuff on impulse.
saw this damn cool kongol handbag,on this magazine i got.
the magazine's fucking good, COOL TAIWAN.

the name sounds kinda retarded but trust me its DA best.
shopping online just makes u drool and woa at everything,
basically its a way of temptations and to test the inner ability to control.
wtf, self control simply doesnt apply to me.

ima go see whut i can do about those lovely bags everywhere,
probably start a saving scheme, or a handbag fund.
donations ? ;D

a good deed goes a long way,so start donating today!
shutup.

and then there's this love at first sight clutch from juicy couture.
money drop from the sky,,,

i aint thinking about u anymore,
now thats a pure lie.
i cant believe i even got sth for u,
when i'm supposed to try and forget u,
and treat it like u're non-existance.

i'm so so sorry.

melody,
{11:10 AM}

Friday, September 14, 2007

my beloved fernando torres scored yesterday against latvia,
but that doesnt make my life much better,
aragones ah pek,
stop insulting people and mind ur own players la.
and will u please let my ft have a fair chance at playing! :(

times have changed so much la,
why cant we just be what we used to be?...
but its over and i wont dwell on it,

bio pract today stupid me,
guess whut rubbish i did.
NEVER READ INSTRUCTIONS> - -
so when everyone got do two experiment, i do one less.
that concludes that i'm neither intellectually inclined,
nor acedemically smart.
but then again, so what.
that doesnt spell the words YAY, btw.

ima go watch my tv and eat,and eat,
a blow it is today!
so much i'm almost swept away.

wah si ah, bo lui jia si mi sai. $

melody,
{11:09 AM}

Thursday, September 13, 2007

it sucks to be alone in this stupid world full of fakes.
the social stress is just ridiculous
hello do i look like i give a shit?
actually i do, coz it affects me, ok wad bullshit.

look in the mirror and cry,
i really dont know who u are anymore. its like..
we used to be like bread and butter and now we are like,,,
urm, lemon and oranges?...
why cant we be together?? WHY.
i swear its you, like not you but you.
u changed.people change i understand
but who are u? do i know u anymore?
my answer, no.

i do love u alot,
and i cant bring myself to say anything else but yes, this is it.
i guess we weren't that great to start off with.

time,time,time, please let me forget everything.

but well,thats life for you.
somehow or another u jus have to dig that little thing inside you
and let it out, and move on
then all will be fine again,
retarded it seems, why cant we jus meet the right person!
i'll try saying hi to the wall.

peace.

melody,
{6:41 PM}