finality,
why am i so affected.

sighs, im like freaking injury prone i cant take it.
my leg/ankle area is acting up again, after i stopped tapeing it.
today's match was absolutely terrible cum sunny.
shall not talk about it, other then the sun, making my tanline more prorminent.
its a sign, i train too much. i seriously am tiring out.
i swear my homework is really like a trash pile of reclaimed land sitting right smack in the middle of my room.
soon my roof is gonna erupt with papers.
sighs! i need a full day to catch up!
maybe i do regret hockeying and slacking so much, but i cant mug like 24/7 ima totally pukes?!
i should be doing my work right about now.

extremist.
omg i absolutely HATE HATE HATE wilfred owen.
not forgetting PWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!(!)(@#)($*)
tiuuuuu totally pure hate,
too much hatred is bad, so ima jus gonna hate these for now.

frankie j hablar espanol, hahah. 2nd verse.

why why why are u so cold to me.
why why why are u doing this to me.
please please would you stop.
me duelo todo, y no puedo hacar nada.
por favor, que yo es.
es distinto.
no encuentro a nadie que me ayude.
quisiera olvidar.

its sinking.

when u think happiness,
i hope you think of me.

i wont run from fate anymore,
just stand still and take what comes.
everything happens for a reason.
its the faith i've lost.

winter is here to stay.
its snowing jus right outside.

voy a sentarme aqui.
por favor, ya esta.
como?

everyday's a bad day,
training is becoming such a chore because my leg is giving way and i'm exhausted.
schools been terrible lately and i jus feel like disappearing into thin air.
the walk home today was absolutely long.
listening to my emo playlist doesnt help, it makes me think and wonder.
its like everything's disintergrating piece by piece and slowly i'm gonna be left with nothing at all.
with just myself waiting to face the depressing state of life.
wads it all becoming, sigh.
i'm a failure at life.
it sucks.
this is like how the darkness embraces everyday with its arms wide open,
i'm gonna sleep.
i'm sorry if i've offended or pissed anyone off,
but lately i've really not been in the best of moods.

i absolutely hate hate hate chinese??!!
fucking stressed, sighs.
life's becoming a fugly bastard.

the wedding was really awesome, thank god its over. i am so tired i wanna puke and die now.
must have cost a bomb, there were like 90 tables worth of people, probably enough to drown me.
but it was that one night, so oh wells.
stayed till late because had to help clear up, my uncle was obviously and seriously drunk he was like cha cha-ing by himself, so freaky i tell u =\
leaving the hotel was the most disasterous.
the carpark barrier thing was absolutely disgusting?!
my dad's complimentry ticket and cashcard got fucking stuck inside, - -
so he was like punching and slamming the bloody machine for like 5 minutes, omg i am so embarrassed.
in the end the freaking machine still deducted 10 dollars plus worth or parking fee from the cashcard, sighs. my dad was over the top he was like gonna ram into the barrier i swear.
wow.poshy glam high class hotels still have rundown old carpark machines that jam. not bad.

morning was terrible, to be exact the whole day was shit.
early in the morning got fucking scolded by my mum for duno wad fucking reason.
i swear she's like pms or seriously having some anger management problems?
jus stormed into my room and i got a bruddy scolding for like practically everything related and non-related.
wtf?!!!
even sleeping in the car (because i got like 2 hrs of sleep) she also wanna pick on me, like hell wads ur prob. so tired alr give me a break yo. and i had to report home early for round two.
wad a curse.
xurong has hand foot mouth hahah, the poor guy will probably be rotten to tears.
everyone thinks hand foot mouth's some toddler children's disease. is it?!?
its not right, i so remember having it during sec3 midyears muahahah.
time of my life when everyone mugs and i jus rot.
cant believe how many people actually commented it as a child's disease i'm so pissed.
lessons were sick, drowsily sleep inducing and hungry. got scolded by like every teacher - -"
trust my luck early monday morning,
training killed my leg, and the excess hw is piling me to death.
soccer guys won 3-0 :]
man u beat liverpool 3-0 D:
okay whutever, i'm gonna like attempt to do my zuo wen and chinese work.
theres gp test tmr, which i never knew existed until like today.
i think i'm a genius when it comes to having short term memory.
sigh, if tmr were better, i would too :(

i'm lagging seriously, please jus give me a full day.
i think i have a fever.

okay lets start with photos first,
taken by miao, during some arts day,



this is called professional photography, compared to mine at the bottom that i took with my phone, urm i can go hide and flush my head down the toilet bowl.
this is what happened to my hand on saturday kay, omg.

the circled portions are injured hahah,
sighs! its swollen okay, got hit during the match.
couldnt move my poor fingers for the whoole day after that, oh man.
so glad i can use them now, love my fingers to bits. hahh.

SUNDAY. my cousin's wedding.


penny and me! and me and er ge.
hahah, we took so many pictures but only one with my phone hahah, sighs.
and clever me, didnt take one with the main couple.
sometimes i salute my intelligence.

hahah, its so late now but oh wells.
went for training today, really dead oh mans.
kind of cracked my ankle, hopefully its fine =\
theres still match tmr and sunday luh sighs, am so screwed up.
sprayed the cool relief thing and i think i'm killing my muscle because i kind of sprayed so much, the new can is becoming empty hahah shitss..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIYUAN!!!!!! =D
hahah. celebrated yuan yuan's birthday and ate cake hahah,
(this is making me so hungry now i shall go cook instant noodles- so unhealthy yo, its like lets see 1am. sighs.)
then went to eat with the hockey people hahah,
THANK YOU : meixian for piggy backing me for a little while, zonghe for walking so slowly with me when everyone just freaking chiong-ed off and,hanwei for carrying my stick and going back with me (:
hahaah, macs was kind of unhealthy too, wad an unhealthy life oh my.
i feel like eating prata suddenly.
okay back track,
stayed over at sijing's on thursday and we mahjong-ed!! (sort of)
but then we got quite tired so went to sleep ,we were being really retarded fighting because nobody wanted to get back up to off the lights,hahah.
went back the next morning, really tired, the rest went towning etc.
fell asleep for like 20 minutes then realised i was late sighs!!!!!!! hahah,
oh my this is so boring,
met them, bought yujie's wallet, felt broke, wanted to die.
then went to meet class people hahah,
damn its like some failure class gathering/ clique gathering.
in the end it was like xurong,philip,me,hanwei and manda.
ong couldnt come which is so so so sad!!! and joan couldnt come in the end too!! which is uber sad. we're like click 5! hahah.
so it was down to us.
they're so funny i was flipping and laughing half of the time, i swear i have abs.
went to the movie area, and they wanted to watch rule #1.
we sat there to stone waiting for manda who obviously slept too much hah.
played cards and got chased away, we took photos too!!! will post it up sometime hahah.
went to food court to eat,play cards/ slack.
so fun hahah, maybe we should go out together more.
rule #1 was terribly frightening, cant believe i actually watched it?!
(amanda went back ): )
the whole time i was like so freaking scared la, trying to look at the screen with my eyes like half open.
and that stupid xurong, pulled away the shirt(that i was using to try and cover my eyes) so i totally had to watch this disgusting scene with some freak gross zombie looking traumatising thing.yucks.
philip was being gay hahah, i think hanwei is more manly and brave then he is, he's like some tiny mouse can, even i dont cover my eyes and ears when watching horror hahah.
went home with hanwei!!!! (:
so totally sprinted so much, we're so fit la.
caught the last train thank god,,,and walked home, goodness it was so scary the atmosphere i had to totally blast my ipod even more, so now i think i'm getting a little deaf.
oh before i forget i must must comment, xurong is so gentlemanly! he carried hanwei's bag and shoe bag, so nice right (:

my ankle's really quite bad, i have to pretend like nothing happened or else my parents will make a fuss.
so i had to climb my stairs and walk without a limp, totally pain to death.
sighs maybe i should go see a doc.

i have like wedding dinner/ buffet (???????) tmr night , my cousin's wedding.
sunday i have my cousin's wedding for the whole day.
conclusion, i'm dead!!!!
i have like nothing nothing nothingggggggggggggggg formal to wear shit.
SIGHS!!! urgent urgent,
maybe i should go out tmr morning before the match to get sth, so at least i wont look that bad.
but sighs! its so late already who on earth is still awake, - -"
if anyone is free saturday 22/03/08 anytime before 2pm, and is willing to be dragged around town with me please msg me/call me asap so i will wake up and go to town and get sth to wear (:
but then again i know that posting this kind of things on my blog never works hahah.
oh wells.
the most i jus town myself which is sad life, so sad that kelly they all working, or else i'll have like lifetime town company sighs.

another important big news, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FERNANDO TORRES!!!!!! :)

I'M NOT ATTACHEDDD!!
BUT SOMEONE IS (cough cough hints hints) HAHAH.
WOOTS, WE WON!!!!! FREE LUNCH!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDD

This is for the ones who believe their lives won't change
Hoping that someday things will mend and be the same
And this is for the ones who have lost it all
When all that's left to gain
Is a simple reminder that the things that we're blind to slip away

How can I say
Say I'll be okay

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

Now that the line's been broken
I'm too afraid to just look back
The pages have left an empty space
You were all I had
Why does it have to be this way
These things they'll never change
Still I'm left with knowing, content and happy, this is all I need

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on.

hahah woots,
today is tuesday and its terrible day.

the juniors played really really well (:
nothing to be sad about or to regret really,
its just that luck wasnt on our side today.
but cheer up okays! we still have 3rd 4th, can so make it.
love u all to death, fight hard (:

i love my team to bits.
totally felt like crying for them, and i miss my team, bdiv06 07.

anyways hahah,
thursday is finally full day omg, he finally decided to explode and let out some of his well kept gas.
click5 outing hahah, craps i think we're kind of lame suddenly.
but then again, they're one of my reasons why i go to school everyday!
but sighs, i do miss the gang, especially kelly abi james and asilah.
have yet to organise stuff on thursday hahah,
tmr is like arts day so we have to do some shit stuff,
then after staying over at sijing's(mahjong night yo) hahah.
then thursday outing, dinner, and friday!!! training hahah. sighs.

i'm spending good friday alone, how good is that. good friday hahah.
sighs, anyone wanna take me outtttttt!!! ):

and my class probably thinks i'm damn pig, at the rate i eat and eat non stop and sleep.
craps, wad do i do in school. eat/sleep/rot. omg, ideal jc life friends.

i so need to post this, this is my dear classmate xurong's impression of me sighs!



sighs! but i doubt that'll happen hahah.


pukes blood friend.
kudos to childishness.

so looking forward to tmr omg i cant wait hahah,
OH YES YES WE"RE GOING DUBAI YAYY YAYY AYYAY AYYAYAYAY.

okay i havent blogged for a while! hahah
really stressed out today and yesterday night, i need to get some sleep omg.
maths test today was (repeats self again for like the millionth time) "pukes blood".
not gonna emphasise on it, i studied okay =(
just didnt really get everything and all the questions that came out were like ??!?!
its okay, at least i have remedial pals for life hahah.
and having tests in the lt is quite terrible too,
firstly theres this pressure to be smart because everyone around is like scribbling damn fast answers that make sense, and pressing their gc.
and all i can do is write nonsense that i myself dun understand and pretend to old up my gc and type some stuff to at least not look that dumb omg, the things i do ( still).
had training, sprints. so i should get some sleep.
TODAY IS ONG"S BIRTHDAY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONG!!!
U KNOW U STILL LOVE UR FRUITS HAHAH,
but the poor girl has monday blues, lets hope tmr's better yea.

that said, back track a little.
lets see,
the crescent bbq was a blast, totally love the crescent people to death =)
had so much fun jus playing and eating non stop.
and we played mahjong till 4am! yujie entertained herself hahah.
but as a result, i think i was dying from lack of sleep the next morning, knowing myself, i need sleep.
so played a disasterous match against crescent, totally wanted to faint and die.
next day. saturday!
woke up relatively late, then hurridly rushed out of the house hahah.
zonghe's birthday! so went down for the hockey bbq there,
its really far though, seeing that i stay like where.
most or all rather of the guys got dunked which was quite a sight,
ate bbq food and felt sick, must be inhaling too much of those smoke.
played cards too, and his deck of cards are freaking cool omg! they are like transparent, ( shit i sound like a loser.)
went back, supposed to watch leap years but ya wells anyways.
met clarence and kenneth and clarence's friend on the way back hahah,
they're so funny and kenneth was being like some emo walking really fast.
i'm glad i dun have gross neighbours (:

sunday premier game! i woke up early to study maths!!
omg can u believe it i sacrificed my sleep. 10stars to myself.
we won theresians 2-0!!
really tiring match but yea, hopefully we start and end well this season (:
got jabbed and its really painful! hopefully she really didnt do it on purpose sighs.
oh wells, at least we won. (:
then chiong-ed.
went tp to cut hair omfg i am pissed off??!!
MY HAIR TOTALLY SNAPPED OFF OMG,?!
i thought it looked fine from the front looking at everything, really its quite satisfying when i first saw it after she cut.
but then i tried to tie then to my horror OMG?! i can like tie a few pathetic strands only, its really fucking short i cant take it. dies.
and its so difficult to tie because theres practically nth left to tie fucking hell.
stayed up to SO LATE 2-3am to study maths.
which obviously ended up being "pukes blood". sighs.
study/ dun study remedial's still my best pal,
I WILL SO GET MY As okay . I DEMAND NO REMEDIAL WITH THAT FUCKING BITCH WOMAN.

yucks goodness. i see my days to live shortening with every day i spend in her fucking class listening to her nag and nag, spare me yo.
juniors game tmr, teck why vs crescent.
COME ON U CAN DO IT (: GOOD LUCK. PLAY HARD.

when we get to heaven,
some people will say,
how we get to heaven,
how we find our way,
i reply with a little bit of anger,
found my way as a CRESCENT HOCKEY PLAYER,
living my life full of fun and danger,
heyyy, wad to say now,
crescent hockey's on its way now,
crescent hockey on its WWWWwwwwAAAAaaaaYYYYAYyYYYYYYyyyy,,,,
now. <3333

i totally love this song,
if anyone ever sings it to me i think i'll really break down in tears.
its so sweet la, sighs.
for some reason i miss my friends so so so much suddenly.

class bbq at my house yesterday,
we didnt take pictures!!! all except a few shots of me and my retarded failed attempts at bbq-ing a marshmellow, sighs, not fated to eat yo.
class gathering was really fun!!!
somewhat hahah, but not everyone turned up,
maybe i'll organize another one so those tai tais can come and play mahjong,
and its really damn funny seeing them play wii,
i bet everyone's muscle-aching to death now.
hahah.
had training today then watched step up2,
totally love it to death,
its really nice!!!!!!!! i love the dancing and the things they wear are like WHOOSH,
i love the pullovers and i love the this love that omg, can i please swap wardrobe.
hahah, omg its like 145am and i'm still not tired shit.

i jus plugged in my phone so i'll post the pictures i took.
this was the other day victorian day.
after floorball we bathed and decided to take pictures in the toilet hahah.






HAHAH HANWEI"S HAIR.



my hair they took a picture of it hahah,
theres still the shape even after i take off the rubber band hahah.


hahah this is a nice shot but guess wheres yujie,
hahah washing her hair at the sink so she couldnt join us, oh wells.

HAHAH, muyao is so gay hahah,
damn funny the pictures.

choosing to ignore so i'll forget and be better.
sometimes it doubles the pain.
so maybe its better if u talk to me.
:(
the sky's crying again.

give it up for just one more day with u,
give it up give it all away,
i'll give it up for just one more day with u.

because u're always in my heart.

):

maybe not.

hello,
i dun feel like putting pictures today so i'll do it some other time.
yesterday when to study with the hockers, quite productive at least i learnt some maths,
totally hate the place we studied at,
friends we shall never go back to that macs yo, its terribly disasterous.
anyways, then went to eat and went back hahah,
fauzan ate 8 donuts wtf, i cant even stomach that much sugar, i value my life.
i ate one and already saw my sugar level rising, omg. 8 is jus insane.

oh wells, had match today with st nics.
woke up early this morning duno for wad shit purpose also,
then totally froze to death on the stupid bus.
anyways, the match was . no comments.
well actually i have but i dun think its too nice so anyways.
the freaking girl was fucking jabbing into me , i feel damn molested thanks.
got kinda frustrated, but oh wells. its jus a match wont kill me.
sighs!
then met marl they all. can u believe it i actually took a bus to queensway there and back just to waste time, - - sighs. the things i do.
then ya, ...
watched koizaro. this jap love story.
its really sweet, sweet sweet, but good show, the lead actor is hot shit.
hahah, but sighs.
i duno after the show, its made me think.
and i'm still thinking.

doesnt help that u're here for a short visit again,
sometimes it jus makes me feel worse and i duno wad to do.
sighs, may i catch a leaf again.

HAHAH HELLO ITS SPECS DAY SO WE ALL WORE SPECS.
omg i am so lazy to post the rest now, its so late and i wanna sleep.
will post more like tmr or sth kays,

lets hope and pray that tomorrow brings back a better day,

bad day today too, woke up with total flu and a heavy head.
felt like dying when i walked to school, apparently was quite stoned the whole morning but who cares.
school's so dead terrible, i sleep in like every single lesson k.
my eye lids jus always somehow or another close by itself, cant be helped yo.
probably karma, the lecturer caught me sleeping today, and i was quite malu-ated.
coz i think he called for a few times but i was dead asleep i didnt respond until ong nudged me oops,
i think i'm like practically dead whenever i sleep.
after that met the hockey people!!!
I MISS U ALL SO MUCH OKAY, EVERYTIME I THINK ABOUT US I WANNA CRY.
I MISS CRESCENT HOCKEY TO EVERY SINGLE SWEAT.
ate at sakae sushi! and wendy is still as wierd and scandalous as before HOHO.
my pullover fetish is back again and guess wad i'm gonna invest in yet another pullover =D
i can go pullover hunting again! and my parents are so nice today (omg i'm scared.) i got extra $50 for my pullover hahah.
i havent gotten my gc yet which is terrible because i have no fucking idea how to function it at all.
tmr's a bad day, i can sense it.
i have to pay $20+ $20 for funds already, since i'm broke and i pay for everything, i guess thats where the extra $50 for my pullover comes in, sigh!
i need a wallet too, not forgetting my clips and pullover, and gc. SIGH!
i duno why i'm jus not very happy these few days, =(

sighs,
lifes terrible recently and look wad i'm down with now, flu.
i'm falling sick and i so totally failed my chinese test today.
so depressing k, =(
and i'm really really exhausted.
totally feel like dying now,
nothing's been going right at all these few days.
can u believe it! i forgot to bring my phone 2 days straight, so pissed off.
and freaking hell i have a bruised knee so now i cant kneel at all, wtf.
i'll feel much better if u care.
sighs, =(