it has been an eventful week and i have no time to blog all about it, not now.
leaving for dubai in like less then 24hrs and i havent packed yet!! panic attack.
well at least i have a new wallet :D happiness.
VJC HOCKEY GIRLS ADIV 08.
WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS. omg taste the gold yo.


I LOVE IT, LOVE THEM.

will be gone till like 3rd june then hopefully i'll blog then, with news from dubai too!
(if i dun burn to death there that is)
I HOPE EVERYONE MISSES ME TO DEATH HOHO.

WE CAN,WE WILL AND WE MUST.
ALL TO GAIN,NOTHING TO LOSE.
VJC HOCKEY LETS GO! :D

so totally annoyingly fucking pissed off right now.
maybe i should ro again, stupid lee is irritatingly tempting me to play tmd.
----------------------------- PISSSSSEEEEEDDDDDD F F FF FF !U@(*$)#(*%
just go to hell man, slap myself wtf.
wwwwhhhhyyyyy.
this is called hao xin mei hao bao. being nice never pays la.
its just another name for being called a sai-gang warrior.
PISSEDDEOIDOEIUDO i'm gonna sleep.

I wonder through fiction to look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
And I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

And hold on before it's too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

And the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you don't live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it
Love til you feel it
It's all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

It's all that we need in our lives
It's all that I need in my life

Before its too late - Goo Goo Dolls.

we won jansenites 3-0 today, a miracle i must say :D
funeral matters keeping me really quite busy.
and im really so exhausted from continuous days of hockeying.
though i love it, sometimes an over dosage makes me hate it.
its really quite late, and i'm having a little of the back ache, wonder why.

semifinals against mi, we won 2-0.
though i felt we werent on fire, not yet, just watch us.
meeting sa in the finals on thursday 3pm delta. its a really scary feeling.
the past two times we made it into the finals bdiv06 07, we really wanted it so so bad, once we were through we just cried and cried.
maybe its because we were the underdogs, and nobody ever expected us to play and hold that well.
but u see, WE all wanted it thats why WE made it.
WE fought hard all together. twice to the finals, i love my team (:
this time with the vjc hockey girls, a different feeling altogether.
please let us play our game,
it'll be the first major thing i've ever won first for.
and i really do want that to happen.

cheer up hockey guys! its not over yet, one more match to fight for! (:
friendly today burning under the sun rays, and my tanline becoming more and more prominent with each and every remaining training. i so need whitening cream.

for the past 16 years of my life(minus when i cant talk etc.)
every single one of my birthday wishes were the same:
that everyone around me stays happy always!
but so many things have happened lately, i'm starting to think that maybe, just maybe, its time for a change.
i missed my grandfather's death anniversary and i'm really quite sad about it.
time really flies, its been 2 years already. this year his 3rd year anniversary,
i regret, because i never got to see my grandfather before he died.
he's been in malaysia camping for a year before he died, then he came back for chinese new year, but i missed seeing him because of family politics.
then, unfortunately, he got knocked down by a speeding cab ):
i remember so very clearly it was during the common test period, and i was having like my very last paper. wasnt allowed to visit him in the hospital because of over crowding and i had to study.
a grave mistake on my part, if i had insisted, i would have gotten the chance to say goodbye.
the day after, it was already the funeral.
feels like shit everytime i go and pray, burn him some stuff.
he took care of me for like 4 years of my fucking life and i didnt even say goodbye, let alone thank him.wtf is wrong with me seriously.
i really do miss that old man,his scary presence with his tattoo filled body.
i swear to u, that i'll make up for it )':

2 days ago, my father's godfather passed away.
though i never really knew him, he's always been the warm caring figure that gives out nice gummies during the cny,
really hilarious old man whose so understanding in everyway he makes the best out of ur complaints and jus makes u laugh at urself for being retarded complaining.
he was still healthy and looking good the last time we visited him during cny, saying with the same broad smile that he'll see us soon, probably next year cny again.
sadly, next year it will be a different story.
i learnt he lost to lung cancer, and it was really quick, 3 months ?
i duno wad to feel, to be happy he didnt have to suffer, or to be sad coz i'll never ever see him again or hear him, ):
with finals coming, im really stressing out.
i have to go for the wake now, )':

even archuleta's singing our song.
its a sign, we will and we MUST play well tmr.
i am so so so stressed, semifinals.
bring it on.

sigh sigh sigh.
KEEP BELIEVING,
CAUSE EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
i'd do whatever it takes, to turn this around.
my life totally sucks.
:(

HAPPINESS,
is when i can stop pulling out my hair and do my lit review (pw) with much ease.
because i have the research materials i need and i can do them cause i have references to refer to, i'm so so happy! :)
thank you helpful people around the world! :D
and GUILT,
is when i'm not going for the choir concert when i alr promised ong(and philip), i feel terrible.
plus everyone else,
sorry! i will so make it up to u all :(
SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY :(

so tmr its gonna be weizhen's bbq for us, please let us get a hat before the party.

thursday! we beat njc 1-0, qualifying for semi finals on the 15/4.
most probably meeting mi.
nj wasnt a very good game, felt like my nervousness got the better of me, as usual.
and getting hit sure isnt a nice feeling, jus that a bruise isnt appearing, its turning red(which is kind of wierd).
friday, watched the guy's match against acsib.
should jus totally fire the umpire yo. i think even i umpire better?!?
thank god for the netting at ccab, or i think we would have all bounced onto the pitch to stab him seriously like wtf is his problem.
that aside,really felt so sad for the hockey guys.
but yea, the episode's over, the umpire will SOOOO be fired.
cheer up =D u all can definitely pull through!
saturday totally burned in hell.
spent like 3hrs plus plus waiting at the fucking ica for a bloody ugly passport, and plus i had to lie to get it or else i think we would have totally waited for like 10 hrs. wad a joke.
i swear they should look into the system, and all those kiasu complaining singaporeans should jus tape themselves in maskingtape and quit complaining. SO PISSED.
but anyways, did a little shopping! quite pleased with my buys, just that omg, i spent like $46 on a top?!! self stabs. totally overpriced but, love it (:
surprisingly i didnt impulse buy hahah. sighs. so shopping deprived.
SHOPPING AGAIN SOON OMG, SHOPPING ANYONE!

adiv is almost ending, depressing.
i hope this season will be really memorable.
remembering bdiv 06 when we beat northland, it really really still feels like yesterday.
i dun think i've ever been so happy in my whole entire 16 years of retarded life.
sighs, its time to probably start clearing some of those overdue hw, (snores).

"if i believe that u can do it, why wont u believe in urself?"

"When I look into your sad eyes
It makes me feel for you
'cause I don't see the light
That was always shining through

Keep believing, baby
'cause everything happens for a reason
And though tonight tears fill your eyes
Don't stop dreamin' girl
I'll be right here to lean on
You're gonna make it through
I wanna see you
Keep believin'

Has anybody ever told you
How beautiful you truly are
How just one smile from you
Can open up any heart
You deserve that too"

havent blogged for awhile!
sports day :
so sorry omg, i will try and grow taller/make my legs move faster.
sighs, short legs :`(
had to run 4x400 for lynx, and 4x100 for hockey!
i never knew those cheater power gel things tasted so nice.
chinnY! and joan's phone ahhah,
"JUST SMILE SWEETLY AT THE CAMERA OKAY" omg, why did we take this shot - -;

this is team work :


(see the gradient)


spot THE extra!

love them all! vj hockey 08 =)



sports day was a blast, after that went to eat at ajisen with sheng hw and sj.
somehow or another we always end up talking hockey hahah, funny eh.
sigh sigh sigh! seeing all those town shops jus hint SHOPPING!

LABOUR DAY.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELIX!!!!!!

CRUMPS =TOTAL LOVE + SINGAPORE FLYER <3
i must say, its damn ex!!? half an hr for $30, i must be insane.
go out soon friends!(oh my, may we not end up like those 4 women HUR)
tourists to the singapore flyer!


oh man, i tip toe still so short, stabs self.
abigail says she looks like my mother,???! i look young ah :D

going crazy:

VIEW FROM ABOVE HEH.

CRUMPS.
LOVE U ALL TO BITS.

pictures from asilah have yet to come in HUR!!!
next time, :)

friday,,, escaped and watched iron man with yujie :D
omg and i got conned into donating $10 for charity :(
because of good karma i promised i had to do it FOR SEASON AGAIN!
(REMIND ME!!!??? i think for both bdivs i spent like 50 just for good karma sighs!)
better be worth my money! and i better stop complaining or else it'll sound so forced, and forced donations dont get good karma. touch woood!
went to rot at sijing's house hahah, oh man i'm so sorry i came to disturb u!
training at ccab, dinner at adam road.
HAPPY BIRTTHDAY JIALING!!!!!!
SAME TASTE GIRL AHAHAH! :DDD LOVE!

saturday: passport making session with sijing!
who totally wanted to stab the auntie for making her put her hair behind her ears AHAH, i was jus dying of laughter, and i so look like a convict in my passport, sighs.
NO ONE IS GONNA SEE IT YO.
totally rotted at citylink area + WE MUST GO SHOPPING LIKE SOON!???!!
dance concert:

it wasnt that bad, just that paying $10 to go back on a saturday night is so diao.
oh wells, its not like everyday u can watch a dance concert.
ate with annabelle and sijing!!! and i had to walk the scary way to the mrt myself HUR!

sunday ... ..
crescent fund raising shirts are in, $15 each in BLUE AND WHITE (2 colours)
PLEASE BUY FROM ME, I"LL BE SO GRATEFUL. <3!
out.