2nd game against mi yesterday, we won 1-0.
felt like bullshit (Still do), and its really so damn depressing because i think seriously even if we won, we played like noobs.totally.
so maybe its not a curse for my first game, and being sick for the seond isnt much of an excuse either, bottomline, i think i'm jus pretty much too off form. like totally some shacked piece of meat loittering around the pitch and fortunately getting some balls.(and picking balls).
mi was like over the moon, they cheered as if they had won the world cup.
if i were them, i think i would have done the same too.
maybe it was complacency or wad, but i think we all expected at least a 3-0??
all i need now is really, a nordin scolding.

slept through the whole of yesterday, every lecture/tutorial was like bedtime.
was really running a fever (how lucky,on tournament day) and felt damn sluggish because my head was so heavy. totally died sleeping in the treehouse and around school.heh.
now to think about it actually vj's quite cosy. sleeping isnt much of a problem,
but that aside, i think i should have focused more on the match then sleeping.
the "in the zone"/ season is here!!!! thing jus isnt getting to me. -stabs self.
oh and thank you everyone, (especially ong and yujie) who was exceptionally caring!hahah.
compared to my family who didnt even realise that i fainted/blacked out on the floor of my room for like 1 half/2hrs.
they thought i was sleeping, like hello. in what state of mind will i be so retarded to sleep on the floor when my bed is like less then 10 steps away. surely i cant be THAT tired??????!
plus the room light was on,lucky for me,my hand(MY HANDDD!)saved my head from a nasty bruise.
ah yes, and i ran into russell yesterday.
quite a pleasant surprise, seeing that i havent seen him in like a million years.
really a lucky coincidence i must say!

there aint premier games this week and next, time to recover and self reflect.
should probably do fitness and some psycho-ing.
oh, and i can hardly do anything with my hands.
kind of got some cut on the left wrist area yesterday which is strategically at the joints so its painful to move AND TOUCH WATER! hur.
and my right hand is classic.
my 3rd 4th and last finger still permanently numb from the hit/fall during training.
so, i cant write! like i have to grip the pen with the thumb and index only, which is so straining it'll jus numb the remaining two fingers i have in use.
plus i think its quite funny because every teacher that comes in stares at me (like when everyone is writing and i'm jus staring into space/ trying to move the pen but to no avail) and then they'll give this really shocked face when i say i cant write HAH. another reason why i'm not doing work and they cant do anything about it;D
damn, suddenly feel damn scared, what if i dun pass promos@?@????!!!
okay, i should stop slacking like seriously and try to do some work.

so many nice movies coming out yet again,
HAROLD AND KUMAR??!!!!!! OMG ITS M18 someone change it to NC16!
then theres made of honour and a few others worth watching for $6, students price, love it.
oh oh, i absolutely hate pw.
i'll be so grateful to everyone and anyone who offers me help yo.
so dizzy now, shall go get some sleep again. (sighs its mid day and wad am i doing)