semifinals against mi, we won 2-0.
though i felt we werent on fire, not yet, just watch us.
meeting sa in the finals on thursday 3pm delta. its a really scary feeling.
the past two times we made it into the finals bdiv06 07, we really wanted it so so bad, once we were through we just cried and cried.
maybe its because we were the underdogs, and nobody ever expected us to play and hold that well.
but u see, WE all wanted it thats why WE made it.
WE fought hard all together. twice to the finals, i love my team (:
this time with the vjc hockey girls, a different feeling altogether.
please let us play our game,
it'll be the first major thing i've ever won first for.
and i really do want that to happen.

cheer up hockey guys! its not over yet, one more match to fight for! (:
friendly today burning under the sun rays, and my tanline becoming more and more prominent with each and every remaining training. i so need whitening cream.

for the past 16 years of my life(minus when i cant talk etc.)
every single one of my birthday wishes were the same:
that everyone around me stays happy always!
but so many things have happened lately, i'm starting to think that maybe, just maybe, its time for a change.
i missed my grandfather's death anniversary and i'm really quite sad about it.
time really flies, its been 2 years already. this year his 3rd year anniversary,
i regret, because i never got to see my grandfather before he died.
he's been in malaysia camping for a year before he died, then he came back for chinese new year, but i missed seeing him because of family politics.
then, unfortunately, he got knocked down by a speeding cab ):
i remember so very clearly it was during the common test period, and i was having like my very last paper. wasnt allowed to visit him in the hospital because of over crowding and i had to study.
a grave mistake on my part, if i had insisted, i would have gotten the chance to say goodbye.
the day after, it was already the funeral.
feels like shit everytime i go and pray, burn him some stuff.
he took care of me for like 4 years of my fucking life and i didnt even say goodbye, let alone thank him.wtf is wrong with me seriously.
i really do miss that old man,his scary presence with his tattoo filled body.
i swear to u, that i'll make up for it )':

2 days ago, my father's godfather passed away.
though i never really knew him, he's always been the warm caring figure that gives out nice gummies during the cny,
really hilarious old man whose so understanding in everyway he makes the best out of ur complaints and jus makes u laugh at urself for being retarded complaining.
he was still healthy and looking good the last time we visited him during cny, saying with the same broad smile that he'll see us soon, probably next year cny again.
sadly, next year it will be a different story.
i learnt he lost to lung cancer, and it was really quick, 3 months ?
i duno wad to feel, to be happy he didnt have to suffer, or to be sad coz i'll never ever see him again or hear him, ):
with finals coming, im really stressing out.
i have to go for the wake now, )':